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Hi Guys!

Another day flying by over here.  Work has been completely nutzo ever since I returned from our vacation a few weeks ago.  I feel like….Vacation? What vacation?  Disappointed smile My tan has faded and life has resumed as usual, but good memories were made as well as a new friend. Smile  I can only imagine how stressed I might be right now had I not gone on vacation.  At least I got a lil sunshine before coming back to NY and getting sick…twice.

So, I mentioned in Saturday’s post that I reached out for help with my eating.  For someone like me who has had issues with weight/eating their entire life, giving up control to someone else is extremely scary.  Where has trying to always be in control honestly gotten me though, right?  It seems that I continue in the same vicious cycle and never seem to break free.

In the past I’ve questioned people’s methods and always found reasons why their plan wasn’t going to work for me.  It wasn’t that it wouldn’t work; rather, it all boiled down to me having to give up control over what and the way that I was eating and not wanting to relinquish that control 100%.  I realize that I’m never going to get better that way.  So, although there is a hint of fear in increasing my calories on a constant basis, I’m EXTREMELY excited to see where this takes me hopefully off of this merry-go-round I’ve been on for over 2 decades.  This isn’t a fitness competitor program.  This is just me trying to reach my optimal health in a balanced way so I can be finally be happy and not allow food to control my life anymore.  I’m crossing my fingers that this is the time that everything clicks for me!

Only a few more hours here at the office and then I’ll hurry on to my new found love, KICKBOXING!  I haven’t been to class in over a week, due to being sick.  I can’t wait to get back in their and knock the bag around.  Before my vacation and then getting sick I could tell that I had gotten stronger and my endurance had drastically improved.  Let’s hope that I haven’t lost much in the time that I’ve been out from class.  Aside from getting a great workout, class provides me with an hour that’s completely mine.  I can take my frustrations out on the bag, work to better my conditioning, take it a little easier some days if I’m not feeling 100%, but also get the push in motivation by being in a class with 14 or so other people.  It’s great!  Seriously, when you find an activity that you enjoy it makes a huge difference!

 

I best be off to do that thing called work.  I hope your week is going well!

~Kim

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Hey There!

It’s been a while, huh?  I wasn’t sure if I’d even remember how to sign into my account to blog. Winking smile

I’ve been home sick the past two days.  Rob caught a nasty stomach bug and lovingly passed it on to me.  I can normally tolerate pain pretty well, but yesterday I was literally moaning in bed and could barely pick my cell phone up to catch up on my favorite blogs or browse through the Twitter-sphere. The most I could do was lay on the blow-up mattress that we’ve been sleeping on and every so often look up to watch The Real Housewives of Orange County marathon that was playing in the background.   I’m definitely not 100% today, but I’m better than yesterday.  At least I was able to get up and take a shower today and not feel like a total slob.

While I’m not home for the best of reasons, I figured I would turn the time off into a positive and blog since I haven’t been able to in what seems like forever.  So much has happened since I last posted!

I’ll start with the best news.  Last Sunday night we slept at HOME for the first time in four months, since Hurricane Sandy!  I can’t even put into words what a wonderful feeling that was.  It felt VICTORIOUS!  I wanted to shout “F-U Sandy!”  We still have a lot to do, but we’re “almost there”. 

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I promise I’ll do a full post about Hurricane Sandy in the future.  For now, I’m cherishing being back home.  I can’t wait to cook our first real dinner on the new stove.  So far, only soup and an omelet have been made, since one or both of us have been sick since moving back in.

Wednesday night I took my fourth and final IIN exam.  Something told me to take the exam that night.  Originally I was planning to do it yesterday and that would not have been fun, being sick and all.  Anyway, I passed!  As of today I’m a IIN Grad and a health counselor.  Yay!  I can’t wait to take this certification and do something with it.  The little wheels in my brain are turning.  It’s going to take some time, but I WILL make it happen!

You know, part of what I learned in my IIN courses is that we can’t let taking care of others get in the way of also taking the time to take care of ourselves.  We have to know when to reach out for support.  I’ve always been very open on the blog about my issues with disordered eating.  I still struggle, even though the issues seem to come in waves and aren’t constant.  The entire situation with Sandy threw me for a loop.  I didn’t deal well.  I kept all of my anxiety and frustration bottled up, except for a few explosions I had in front of Rob (poor guy), which resulted in my disordered eating to rear its nasty head.  Now that we are back home I’m able to focus more on myself.  The other day I knew it was time for me to do something about it.  So, I reached for support and am excited to start working on my issues as of this Monday with a trained professional.  It’s going to take work, but I’m ready for it.  I’m not going to allow this to control my life any longer!

Another thing I learned throughout my studies is that we must push past our fears

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Being a shy person, I tend to hold myself back a lot.  I don’t like doing new things on my own.  I’ll come up with a million excuses not to do something that I really want to do, all because of fear.  One of the things on my bucket list was to try kickboxing.  I tried persuading my sister and a few friends, but I could tell that no one was going to pull through for me.  Either I was going to do it alone or not do it at all.  I signed up online randomly one Thursday for an introductory 3 pack of sessions and I haven’t looked back since.  Pushing myself in that moment was one of the best things I could have done for myself.  I walked out of that first class so proud of myself and honestly smile every time I go to class, knowing how hard it was for me on that first day and how this is now part of my new norm.

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I LOVE going to class, having that hour of me-time all to myself, and getting a good sweat on in the process.

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I feel my body getting stronger just from going 2-3 times per week.  I also think that for someone like me who bottles everything up, punching and kicking a bag as hard as I want is good for me.  It allows me to get some of my built up frustrations out.  My boss told me not to get too good. LOL.  I don’t know what he’s afraid of. Winking smile

Ok, it’s time for me to lay down again.  This bug is really kicking my toosh!  Have a wonderful weekend and be ready for regular blog posting starting in the coming week.

~Kim

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Hi Guys!

Well, I’m breaking out of my comfort zone and going to a kickboxing class tonight….ALONE. Can I just say that I’m SCARED? Sure am! I’m doing it though and not going to let anything get in my way. It’s time for some changes! 

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I tried to get a friend to come with me tonight, but she was unable to commit and my sister won’t be able to join me until Saturday.  The old Kim would have set the challenge aside and waited until someone could go to class with her, but I really want to prove to myself that I can do it on my own.  I’m tired of not reaching my goals because of fears that hold me back!  So, I bought a small package of sessions, just to see if I’d actually like it, and made an appointment with the instructor tonight before class. They have a short meeting with every new member, which I think is great.  I know I’m not the only Nervous Nelly walking through their doors for the first time. 😉

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This isn’t like hot yoga, where I went alone but was pretty much able to hide and keep to myself in the back corner of the room.  There is no escaping being seen here.  What scares me the most is making a mistake and looking silly in front of people.  It’s fears like this that have held me back in life.  No more! 

I can’t expect the magic to happen if I don’t step outside of my comfort zone, right?

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Once I’m comfortable with myself in class people better look out!  Something about me that most people don’t know is that I’m COMPETITIVE. People sometimes wonder where this shy little thing came from when I put my determination full force.  They say it’s the quiet ones, right?  Gotta keep people on their toes, folks.  Haha.  😉

I figured I would make my appointment for tonight so that I couldn’t chicken out.  The longer I let things sit the more likely they will fade to the back of my mind or I come up with excuses as to why I can’t do X, Y or Z.  I spoke with the front desk person mid-morning and told her that I’ll be there 20 minutes before class tonight. I’ll give my sister a full report and if all goes well I’ll have a Saturday morning kickboxing buddy!  Yay!!  I think it would be a fun routine to start with each other. I foresee many breakfasts at the diner after our sweat sessions in the near future.  🙂

If I don’t write again by Friday, be worried.  Keep your fingers crossed that I survive.  I can use all the help I can get!

What’s something you’ve recently done to push yourself out of your comfort zone?

~Kim

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