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Hi Friends,

It’s a beautiful day here in NY.  Spring seems to have FINALLY sprung here!  The trees are beginning to bloom, it’s getting a little warmer and the sunshine is adding a lil pep to people’s steps.  More people are outside enjoying the beautiful weather which is always nice to see. 

I can’t wait to get out and enjoy it myself!  We’ve been work, work, working away on the house trying to get it back to what it once was prior to Hurricane Sandy.  There are times that we get really depressed because it feels like we’ve been at this forever and things still aren’t quite right.  Putting everything into perspective though, we realize how far we’ve come and are so thankful to be living back home again.  It was just about a month ago that we were able to move back home.  I was so stressed and depressed at that point.  I’m much happier now!  We just have to stay focused and continue to remind ourselves of the positives!

Anyway, with spring here I know that summer is right around the corner.  That means it’s almost time for the beach….and bikinis.  Let me tell you, my body is nowhere near ready to be wearing a bikini.  All of the stress really did a number on my poor body (and mind).  I’m back on track now and set up a little beach body challenge for myself.  For the next 90 days I’ll be doing a hybrid of Insanity & Les Mills Pump.  I began Insanity a few weeks ago but REALLY missed lifting, so I decided to purchases PUMP to get my lifting fix satisfied. I think this is going to be a great combo!

Insanity is no joke!  I’m sure you know that if you’ve ever seen any of their infomercials.  There were many times that I watched that infomercial intrigued with the program and the results, yet I didn’t think that I personally would be able to complete it.  I mean, I’m just this normal girl from Long Island.  😉  My thoughts changed when my sister, Melissa, completed it (FYI – she’s now on her 3rd round now!) and my brother, DJ, completed it with AMAZING results (see his pics below – he’s now on his 2nd round). 

Before - 210 lbs

Before – 210 lbs

After - 179 lbs

Comparison = AMAZING!

The wheels in my brain began turning and I thought, “If they can do it so can I!”

So, I got myself onto the Beachbody website and ordered Insanity.  If you’ve been reading my blog for a while you know that my true love is lifting.  It takes real motivation to get me to do my cardio.  There are a ton of tricks I’ve adapted over the years in order to get my cardio in.  I’m VERY competitive with myself, so Insanity is perfect for me.  It challenges me to be better than the last time that I “pressed play”, instead of mindlessly pedaling on an elliptical.  After about 2 weeks of Insanity I was really missing my lifting routine though. 


(I’m not sure where this image came from. I think I found it on Pinterest originally. Sorry for no proper link.)

It didn’t make sense to do Insanity at home and then drive to the gym to lift.  Not having to drive to and from the gym every morning gives me extra time to sleep and do other things around the house before work.  The wheels began turning again and I decided to purchase Les Mills Pump.  Now, I can get cardio and lifting in right from my living room!  I truly believe that these two programs combined are going to get me to my best body ever (especially in combination with my new eating regimen). 🙂

I’m putting this out there for my own accountability.  Two months from now I’ll be finished with Insanity and Les Mills Pump will be complete a month after that.  I’m so excited to see where this takes me!   My brother may be 11 years younger than me, but he is my inspiration right now.  We’ve both battled weight issues for years and I’m so proud of him for taking control of his life and making positive changes ( DJ, if you’re reading this, I love you and I’m SO PROUD OF YOU)!  I hope that my after pics are as great as his!

If you’d like to join me in the challenge of getting into your best shape by summer, let me know.  I’m going to post my workouts and stats weekly to keep me accountable.  Come join the fun!  I’d love to have some workout partners! 🙂

If you’re interested in purchasing the programs I’ll be using (or any other Beachbody programs ) you can check them out on my coaching site.  Just go to the Beachbody website by copying the following into your browser: http://www.beachbody.com/  (WordPress won’t allow this to be a hyperlink) and sign up for a free account, if you don’t already have one.  Then, add me as a buddy.  My screenname is: BeFitWithKim.  Friend request me, even if you already have a great coach.  I love meeting new people!  🙂 You can also check out my new Facebook page where I’ll be posting daily for accountability and inspiration hereI’d love for you to like and follow me there!

*Disclosure: I am now a Beachbody coach, but all opinions are my own.  I will NEVER push products on you…EVER! If you have any questions about any Beachbody program or product feel free to ask me.  I’m happy to help in any way that I can.

Ok, time to get back to work.  I hope you’re having a great day!


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Hi Friends!

This Friday made its presence known by bringing with it some snowy weather.

Last Snow

My commute to work was much slower than usual, but I tried to take in the beautiful scenery around me as I made my way in.  Hopefully this will be the final snowfall for the year!  Due to the weather, the office is much quieter than usual and I like it that way, especially on a Friday when you just want to unwind.  Smile

You know, the more I thought about yesterday’s post the more positive I became for the coming year.  Even though others might not know it, I’ve really come a long way, and I need to acknowledge how much I’ve grown over the years.


Maybe I’m not exactly where I want to be, but I know that I will go the distance to get myself there.  I can honestly say that no matter how many times I’ve been knocked down I always pick myself up.  There have been times where it was much more difficult than others to find the motivation to dust myself off and get moving again, but I have never sat back completely defeated.  I will never give up on myself.  EVER!  The past is just that – “THE PAST”.  Learn from your experiences (good and bad), make whatever tweaks you see fit and then move forward to bettering your future.

Door Quote

Once you realize that YOU are in control (for the most part) of your destiny, it’s easier to see things in a positive light.  Don’t look to compete with others.  Instead, find ways to motivate yourself to be better.  There is no race to the finish line! 


Make small changes that better you and eventually you will look in the mirror to find that you are the person you’ve aspired to be.  You can’t stop believing in yourself though.  If you don’t believe how will others?

It’s going to take work, but you can shape your future to be what you’ve always dreamed. 

With that, I’ll tell you that I have BIG dreams for myself.  I know that there has to be a reason why I’ve had so many struggles throughout my life.  I believe it’s to help others not have to struggle the way that I have(or at least not for as long).  These dreams won’t become reality on their own though.  My coming 34th year marks the time that I take action and make things happen.  When I look at it that way, I’m much more excited to be done with 33 and move on!

A wise man once said….

Your Work - Don't Settle

He’s right!  I’m looking forward to making my dream job a reality.  I just have to pursue my dreams instead of making wishes and not let ANYTHING get in the way!

Ok, time to run!  Only 3 more hours left of work and then I’m out of here!


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Hi My Sweets!

I currently pulled myself out of the whirlwind that I call my work life to take a short break and regroup myself.  The past few days have really flown because work has been INSANELY busy.  Hey, it’s better to get to take your break at 3 PM instead of no break at all, right?  Sometimes, I actually like to take my break later in the day.  By the time I get back to my desk the day is almost over and I’m motivated in knowing that I’ll be able to leave and go home (or go to kickboxing) soon. Smile

Speaking of motivation, I’ve been a little down in the dumps lately, even with all of the positive things beginning to happen right now.  I’m almost 100% certain is has to do with my coming birthday on Sunday.  When I turned 33 last year I truly believed that the coming year was going to have wonderful things in store for me.  I had plans for what I was going to do with myself (fitness competition, graduating from IIN with a full client list, possibly getting engaged, etc.)  While I did graduate from IIN most of the other things in my bucket list just didn’t happen.  Granted, there was an unexpected hurricane which took away our home, but the closer I’m getting to marking another year the more depressed I get knowing that I didn’t reach my goals.  I’m going into my 34th year with a very negative attitude which needs to change!  NOW!

I need to stop looking in my rearview mirror and start looking toward the present and future.  No should’ve, could’ve, would’ve is going to change anything that happened over the past year.  It’s time to take a look at what prevented me from reaching my goals over this past year so that I don’t make the same mistakes again and then move forward.  Only I am in control of today and my future.

On that note, I must make some things happen over at my desk.  I’ll also be making things happen at kickboxing tonight, but that’s 3 hours from now.  Work first and play later. Winking smile

Have a great day!


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Hi Guys!

Well, I’m breaking out of my comfort zone and going to a kickboxing class tonight….ALONE. Can I just say that I’m SCARED? Sure am! I’m doing it though and not going to let anything get in my way. It’s time for some changes! 


I tried to get a friend to come with me tonight, but she was unable to commit and my sister won’t be able to join me until Saturday.  The old Kim would have set the challenge aside and waited until someone could go to class with her, but I really want to prove to myself that I can do it on my own.  I’m tired of not reaching my goals because of fears that hold me back!  So, I bought a small package of sessions, just to see if I’d actually like it, and made an appointment with the instructor tonight before class. They have a short meeting with every new member, which I think is great.  I know I’m not the only Nervous Nelly walking through their doors for the first time. 😉


This isn’t like hot yoga, where I went alone but was pretty much able to hide and keep to myself in the back corner of the room.  There is no escaping being seen here.  What scares me the most is making a mistake and looking silly in front of people.  It’s fears like this that have held me back in life.  No more! 

I can’t expect the magic to happen if I don’t step outside of my comfort zone, right?


Once I’m comfortable with myself in class people better look out!  Something about me that most people don’t know is that I’m COMPETITIVE. People sometimes wonder where this shy little thing came from when I put my determination full force.  They say it’s the quiet ones, right?  Gotta keep people on their toes, folks.  Haha.  😉

I figured I would make my appointment for tonight so that I couldn’t chicken out.  The longer I let things sit the more likely they will fade to the back of my mind or I come up with excuses as to why I can’t do X, Y or Z.  I spoke with the front desk person mid-morning and told her that I’ll be there 20 minutes before class tonight. I’ll give my sister a full report and if all goes well I’ll have a Saturday morning kickboxing buddy!  Yay!!  I think it would be a fun routine to start with each other. I foresee many breakfasts at the diner after our sweat sessions in the near future.  🙂

If I don’t write again by Friday, be worried.  Keep your fingers crossed that I survive.  I can use all the help I can get!

What’s something you’ve recently done to push yourself out of your comfort zone?


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Hey Guys!

Mixed emotions have made for a very confused Kim lately.  Poor Rob never knows when tears might be sprung upon him and Saturday morning just happened to be one of those days.  I tend to think a lot without expressing my feelings.  Then, one day, when I can’t take the thoughts anymore I let it all out like an erupting volcano.



This time the tears were feelings about not having a purpose in life.



I feel like I’m on the road to finding what I’m meant to do, yet I’m just not there yet. The hurricane totally interrupted certain plans that I had for myself. I feel like I can’t truly focus on my goals because life is topsy-turvy right now. I HATE doing anything half-assed. I guess I can be an all or nothing type of person.

When the tears started to flow I mentioned giving up the blog.  I have all of these grand ideas of what this blog can be, but I haven’t had the time to dedicate to it and make it that visualization yet.  I don’t know what I was originally thinking.  I barely have time to read my favorite blogs, never mind writing my own and making it something special. 

It’s that perfectionist tendency that continues to get in my way.  Rob pointed out that this isn’t my job, nor is my wanting to have a body like a fitness model.  These are just things that I strive to do in my life and maybe my goals aren’t realistic.  I put a lot of pressure on myself to make things a certain way, but don’t give myself credit for what I actually do well.  I always seem to focus on what could be better.  I know I’m not the only one that does this to themselves.  We really have to learn to treat ourselves the way we’d treat others and give ourselves some slack.

Our living situation doesn’t allow me to do my beloved baking or get creative with meals and that contributes to me not being able to make this blog what I envision it to one day be.  That doesn’t mean I have to stop and wait until that day when we finally get to move back home.  I’m going to do what I can for the time being and keep those grand ideas for the near future. 🙂

As for feelings of not having a purpose in life, that’s going to take some work.  Aside from Rob, family and a few friends my life is feeling kind of unfulfilled.  I think that’s part of the reason I keep going back to wanting to compete in a fitness show.  It gives me a goal to work toward, even though it might not be the healthiest thing for someone with disordered eating to strive for.  Rob and my family have spoken up that they don’t agree with this goal for myself.  I swing back and forth between what to do.  I see and understand their point of view.  They just want me to be healthy and happy.  That’s what I want for myself, as well.

I think that instead of striving for body perfection, I need to stay focused on what will fulfill me as a person. 

find purpose


I don’t have many friends out here in Long Island, but haven’t really put myself out there to meet new people. If Rob goes out with friends or is away on a business trip I’m just left alone.  Being alone can be nice at times.  In fact, I sometimes welcome it; however, sometimes you want to hang out with a friend, do girly things, go to a movie, or try a restaurant or activity that Rob would never try.  If my mom and siblings were closer I’d totally have a crew of people to choose from. There are A LOT of us!!  I’m painfully shy, so making friends has always been difficult for me. I find it even tougher at this stage of my life, as most people already have their set of friends and life is busy with raising a family and work.

Side note: I’ve always been a bit insecure with myself.  For many years, when I was younger and in school, I was teased for my appearance.  I was basically the brown-haired version of Drew Barrymore in Never Been Kissed.

I did have a better prom dress though. Give me some credit. ;)

I did have a better prom dress though. Give me some credit. 😉


That’s what started the drive in me for body perfection.  I thought that if I lost the weight got contacts, took the braces off and straightened my hair everything would fall into place. We all know the reality of that though, right? In fact, after I lost the weight my sophomore year of high school girls were sometimes even meaner to me.  Some people who had been my friend when I was heavier dropped me.  I was so confused.  At the time, I thought something was wrong with ME.  Looking back, I know it was the insecurities that they had within themselves that caused them to be that way.  I was (and still do) look to myself for the issue when the issue isn’t always with me.  ~End of Side Note

However, if I start doing activities that I’m interested in (yoga, baking classes, ceramics/crafts, etc) I’ll at least be around other people who have similar interests and might even make a friend or two.  I just have to take that step!

There’s more to life than working out, going to work, paying bills, cleaning & putting pressure on yourself to be a certain way.  Somewhere along the way, I lost sight about what life is truly about. For years, my focus has been on getting my body to a certain point so that I could move forward in life and be happy.  I realize how backward that thinking is and how much I’ve been missing out on, as a result.  Maybe, just maybe, if I live my life to the fullest and don’t worry about what others think of me, my body will end up right where it’s meant to be without much effort.

If I truly think about it, that’s the obvious way I SHOULD be living my life!  

  • Instead of waiting to buy new clothes until I lose “X” amount of weight, I should be buying them now in order to feel better about myself.
  • Instead of sitting alone on nights when Rob is away (b/c I’m ashamed of my appearance), leaving me prone to binge eating behaviors, I should be out with friends or enjoying an activity.
  • Instead of worrying about a meal out with friends/family/Rob and ending up with a boring salad and later bingeing on random stuff in the house, I should enjoy what I want in the moment (in moderation, of course) without guilt.

When I look at it I can see the constant cycle which leads me to my bad behaviors and then more shame, taking me further away from the way life is meant to be lived.



Now that I’m conscious of the cycle it’s time to make some changes!

  • My hot yoga classes are purchased. I’ve been to one class so far, but hope to get into a routine so that I see the same faces weekly and maybe make some friends out of it.  It’s a win-win, right?
  • I’m looking into other classes in the area that I might enjoy (baking, cooking, crafts, photography, dance, etc) & actually signing up for them instead of just talking about it.
  • I’m looking for a therapist to help me in my journey to feeling better about myself.
  • Do nice things for myself to help with my self-esteem: new clothes, mani/pedi, consistent hair cuts, etc.
  • I’ll go to the gym for my health and well-being, NOT to look like a competitor.  I also have to be OK with that decision and move on with actually LIVING my life!
  • This blog will remain! I’ll post when and what I can for now and when we FINALLY (please let it be soon, dear lord!) move back home I can continue with my vision.

For now, the purpose of the remainder of my day is to finish all of the projects I should be working on for work, instead of getting these thoughts off my mind. 😉

Have a great day!


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Good Morning, My Sweets!


 Well, we’re three days into the New Year.  How’s it going?  Are you still on track to keeping any resolutions or goals that you set for yourself?  I’m happy to say that I’m right on point! 

 Prior to the new year I had let some bad habits creep back into my life.  I was staying up WAYYYYY too late, pretty much every night.  I’m talking about 1, 2, 3 and even 4 AM late!  Staying up that late only lead to being horribly tired every day, missing workouts and binge eating behavior.  I was sluggish, grumpy and totally dragging on most days.  If I didn’t make it to the gym in the morning, which let’s face it was most mornings, I’d be snuggled in bed (or on the couch more likely) until the very last second.  Then, I’d be left to rush and have anxiety about getting to work on time.  No Bueno!!

 When I thought about what I really wanted to commit to in order to better myself this year, I took all of this into account.  My mornings were one big mess which spiraled into the evening.  It was an endless cycle that I couldn’t seem to stop.  Wanting to be the best ME possible, I knew that getting my sleep cycle in order would be one of the best things I could do for my body.  Not only would I be re-energized by morning, but it would have a trickle effect, stopping other bad behaviors.

 I’ve always been a night owl, so going to bed at a reasonable hour is difficult for me.  I used those late night/early morning hours to catch up on all of my “girly” shows (as deemed by Rob), because I couldn’t watch them while he was up.  Once we move back into our house it’ll be easier.  I don’t have to be stuck to him 24/7.  I can watch my shows at a normal hour in a different room, if I so choose.  Where we are currently living I don’t have that opportunity.  Now, instead of watching something I’m not really into, I’ve been using the time to prep my meals & outfit for the following day, tidy up and read. 

 Last night, we watched a recorded episode of Mob Doctor and then Rob put on one of his manly shows.  You know, something about guns, fishing, cars, whale wars, etc.  You get the idea, right?  Some of those shows are good, but they aren’t anything I’m absolutely in love with and HAVE to see. 

I totally could have stayed in the tv area for a little while longer, but I got up and retired to the bedroom, where I read until Rob came in.  Then, it was lights out and I got another full night of sleep.  My body must really be loving me right now and wondering who this new Kim is that goes to bed before 11 PM.  😉

 All because of breaking one habit (staying up late) I am:

  1. Refreshed in the Morning
  2. Not Upset with Myself in the Morning (as a result of binges b/c now I didn’t binge!)
  3. Reading More
  4. Losing Weight Again
  5. Well Prepared for the Following Day

All it takes is changing ONE bad habit and you can create a positive trickle effect in your life.  All I know is, I’m keeping this up!  It can only lead to positive things for me.  I’ll take it!!

 What’s one habit that you’d like to break?  How do you see it creating a positive trickle effect in your life?

Have a great day!


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Hey Guys!

Yesterday ended on a much higher note than it began.  Rob and I had dinner with his  family and then retired to our living space.  We chilled out watching tv, surfing the net and laughing with each other.  He really adds so much to my life and I’m thankful to have him in it.  I tease him that he was hiding on me for way too many years!  😉

My written plan of action from yesterday went into effect last night, with me heading to bed at 10 PM.  I couldn’t fall asleep right away, so I decided to read (by flashlight) for a little while.  I finished my book and went to sleep with a smile on my face.  It was a nice, deep sleep and I felt well rested this morning.

When I woke up, my good thought for the day ahead is that it’s already Wednesday!  Only 3 days until another weekend!  YES!! I’ve been checking my posture, meals are prepped, water bottles are filled and ready to drink.  I’m on my way to a great day!



All morning I’ve been visualizing.  I remember how great I felt last February.  I was eating healthy, going to the gym consistently and seeing awesome results.  My skin had a glow and my hair was extra shiny.  I was healthy! My body was loving me for what I was providing it. 

There’s a picture from a coffee date I had with my sister mid-February 2012 that reminds me of how great I felt at that time and keeps calling for me to get back to that feeling.   

Feb Kim

Kim Feeling Great!

 We had gone to check out a maid of honor dress option at her bridal shop and then went to Sertino’s Café afterwards.Sertinos

My Sister, Jess

My Sister, Jess

I remember how my body felt that day.  I remember waking up with my stomach feeling firm and there was the beginning of ab muscle definition.  My legs were much more toned and had a better shape to them.  I remember admiring them as I pulled the covers up so I could roll out of bed.  If you knew me, you’d know that I’ve always disliked my legs.  So, for me to say that I was actually happy with them is a HUGE triumph!  My jeans slipped right on and were actually a little loose on me.  I loved the feeling!  The best part of the day was slipping on the dress and actually feeling pretty in front of the mirror.

When we went looking for the dress, my meals were already prepped and I took them with me for the road.  Rob teased me about bringing my rice cakes, shake and peanut butter, but I didn’t care.  They did my body good. 😉  My sister has been through it all with me, so she’d never say anything about my bringing food along.  That’s just me and she accepts it.  They all just want me to be healthy and happy. 

I keep visualizing that day and how I felt.  I’m motivated to get back there again….and I WILL!   I know I can do it because I already have!

Game on!


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